Under a Little Umbrella

Finally, I’m writing again.  It’s nothing much, just a simple change of routine.  When there’s inspiration, might as well get on with it. 

Had a story which was stalled for more than 2 years.  Basically, it’s 1 story that’s divided into 3 parts.  The first 2 were completed a long time ago.  It’s the final that’s been delayed.  Why did it take me so long?  Well, things happened ( which isn’t really a good excuse ), and I didn’t have the motivation.  So, after that much time, including some opinions from a few friends, the idea came to me out of the blue.  Well, to begin with, I roughly had the elements I wanted.  Only, I hadn’t the slightest clue on how to incorporate them to my tale.  Visualizing them were easy.  The hard part was to put them into words.  Still, once all the things were in place, I just had to complete it as soon as I can.  It would be further delayed should I have second thoughts. 

Similar to my previous works, my latest was inspired in part by an anime, a movie and a comic book.  Again, it really isn’t much, but I’m happy with it.  Having spent so much time on thinking of how to end it, it felt good to be able to conclude it at last.

Well, there’s nothing special about it though, just a typical love story.  However, it’s MY work of fiction.  There are certain errors as well, but I’m not perfect.  Definitely something I enjoy doing, but many aren’t aware of that.  Not exactly something to be proud of, but it’s still a hobby.  So, just a minor change to the things I usually do, which will continue to rotate every once in a while.

Sometime back, I mentioned about hating someone, a girl in particular.  Well, guess what?  I don’t hate her anymore.  Now, I DESPISE her.  Hahahahaha.  Wait… to my understanding, ‘despise’ is of a higher degree compared to hate.  Anyway, in simple words, just want to state that the hatred has gone deeper.  :p 

Won’t reveal what happened, also won’t say when it happened.  Just, it’s in the past, which led me to this point in time.  Nothing much I can do about it, and trust that such venting through this blog won’t help much either.  Still, it is a favourable option compared to some of those which, could do a lot more damage. 

In a sense, rage is a dangerous thing.  Uncontrolled emotions may lead to dire consequences.  Hahahahaha.  Luckily, my situation isn’t that serious.  However, I’ll admit that there were times when I was angry enough that I felt like doing something bad about it, like hurting those particular people, physically or emotionally.  It may be simple actions like raising my voice or lashing out, but who can predict the outcome of such things?  The scars that result may remain for a very long time. 

Honestly, I’m burning right now.  Imagine the heat in a microwave, with the microwave trapped in a burning BBQ pit, which is slowly sinking into the molten lava of an active volcano, which is located at the center of a planet, which is being consumed by the sun.  Hard to imagine, right?  Hahahahaha.  Therefore, can’t really describe in detail my anger and hatred for this individual, but I do know that I haven’t felt this way in a long time.  Can’t clearly recall ever despising someone that much.  Still, I may not be able to control my emotions, but at least I can control my actions.  It may not be the best of ways, but thus far, not much damage has been done, except maybe to my sanity.  :p 

Some know about my ‘temptation’ mantra.  Well, I also have a ‘patient’ mantra.  The former was more practiced a few years back.  The latter however, has been occupying my time a lot recently.  I often mentioned of how there’s only so much one can do.  Hopefully, I’ll be able to do more.  Perhaps a little bit of subtlelty may help.  What’s obvious is that the key right now is ‘patience’.