Under a Little Umbrella

"Even d blind can c…"

Not literally, of course.  It’s a common figure of speech, & sth I’m… familiar wif…

A long, long time ago, I was in a situation which I hoped no 1 notices.  Obviously, ppl know, but in part, I somewhat played a role in that, s I did tell a number of ppl abt it.

A long time ago, d cycle repeats itself.  Again, I tell less ppl abt it 2, & again, others seem 2 know.  Darn…

Some time ago, d cycle once again.  There’s a dif though.  Even less ppl r told, which means less ppl notice.  Still, ppl r aware, which is xactly d thing I want 2 avoid.  Makes me wonder, m I really that transparent?

Nth much in my life now, so nth in particular 2 ‘hide’.  Apparently, ppl know more than they tend let out.  Only, they choose 2 b quiet abt them.  Reason?  Not necessary 4 others 2 know what u urself know, unless d situation requires it, right?  Also, unsure what any intervention or revelation might cause, s these things r usually very delicate.  So, safer 2 let them b, & remain @ d sidelines 2 follow d progress of things, assist only during… critical situations.  :p

Despite all this, there exist those who really aren’t aware of things.  Obviously, not uncommon.  S such, d phrase above doesn’t fit anymore.  It shd b s below :-

"Only d blind can c…’

Yes, I know it doesn’t make any sense, but a fwen pointed it out 2 me.  Like others, she c things, but there’s a dif.  In a way, she’s an ‘outsider’.  When I asked her how she came up wif such things, she quoted d above, above phrase.  On further conversation, 2 make things easier, she simply said that she’s ‘blind’.

There r other such ‘blind’ fwens, but that particular 1 is… dif.  If it is even possible, she is actually more ‘blind’ than others.  LOL.  Dangerous… but also good in a way.  Y?  @ d very least, I hav 1 person I can talk 2.

So, 2 her & a few others, thanks 4 being ‘blind’.  ^_^

If u don’t understand, it’s actually ‘Tales…’ 

There’s 1 fwen whom I think is almost perfect.  He’s good looking, smart, athletic, energetic, friendly, funny, on a steady relationship, has a good career, promising future, well off financially…  Hm…  What else did I miss?  Impossible?  No.  Hard 2 come by?  Yes.

Another fwen isn’t that… ‘complete’, but he’s ok 2.  From what I c, what he lacks is d career, future & financial part.  Still, that doesn’t diminish him from being a babe magnet ( Darn… ).  What’s good abt him is his willingness 2 ‘bend’ according 2 situations.  Not that he always puts others’ importance b4 his 1st.  Just, most of d time, it’s like that.  This kind of character does irk me sometimes.  Sacrificing 4 others is commendable, but if it brings personal suffering…  I did bring up such issues 2 him, but always, he shrugs them off, saying things like, "it’s nth" or "I’m fine".  It’s never nth, & he’s never fine.  Y do I say that?  I trust I know him well enuf.  If I’m mistaken, it’s a good thing. 

1 other fwen is a guy magnet, d obvious attraction being her charm.  Of course, all those other good personalities come in s well ( kind, friendly, smart, energetic, etc. )  Unsure if she’s in a relationship.  Last I heard, she was still waiting 4 ‘Mr Right’, despite d magnet factor.  Wonder how long that will take…  What’s impressiv abt her is her determination in facing her life struggles.  Not an uncommon trait among lots of ppl, but hey, I DON’T KNOW lots of ppl.  I admire her resolve, if not her approach.  Can only hope that she doesn’t push herself 2 far. 

A dif guy magnet is totally dif, not that I know her that well.  Still, I brand her s d manipulativ kind.  LOL.  & that ends this paragraph. 

Another dif guy magnet is more reserved, & also spoiled…  & that concludes this paragraph. 

1 fwen in a steady relationship keeps me… entertained.  No, she’s not a joker, & I’m not exactly making fun of her either.  It’s her character.  Where others may say that she is blur, or slow, or naive, I say that she is who she is.  Not perfect, but obviously, 4 me, her strengths outshine her flaws.  Doesn’t mean that I overlook those weaknesses all d time though…  Still, in truth, I’ve wronged her much.  Do want 2 make amends, but find it unlikely.  Intend 2 do so in less obvious ways. 

Another fwen, also in a steady relationship, is in a more… stable situation.  She think’s far ahead, a lil 2 far 4 me.  She manage things well, & 4 a time, indirectly motivated me during complicated times.  Whether she is aware of that or not is not my place 2 answer. 

Another dif fwen is in a less delicate situation.  Job, gf, car, it’s all there.  Still, sth’s missing, right?  He’s in a more common situation wif many others, but his jovial & care-free attitude is what makes him stands out.  He’ll always set a time 4 relaxing, even if it costs a lot.  It’s his way of doing things. 

In a dif country, this fwen of mine misses her hometown.  Unlikely 4 her 2 return anytime soon though.  4 1, her career is just beginning, & 2, it costs a lot 4 a return trip.  In such cases, I’ll say that money shdn’t really matter, but she isn’t me.  She hav things 2 go thru, & though it’s fine 2 take a break once in a while, there r times when it’s better 2 tie up loose ends soonest possible. 

I trust that another fwen in another dif country is in a less complicated situation.  She has some roots 2 help steady her when she went over.  Although still uncertain of where she might b headed 2 in d future, she has taken that 1st step, s others hav.  Seems like she has left a lot of footprints. 

1 married fwen already has a son.  Isn’t that nice?

WOW!  All these ‘tails’ r really… time-wasting.  LOL.  It brings back memories, fond & sad 1s, but memories nonetheless…