Under a Little Umbrella

Finished reading a graphic novel series entitled ‘The Sandman’.  Lost?  It’s abt d tale of ‘Dream’.  Yes, ‘Dream’, s an entity, not a process, a living being.  That name alone tells everything, doesn’t it?  He is all d things that r not, a fragment of our subconsciousness unaware 2 us.  He rules d ‘Dreaming’, n that is where sweet dreams & nightmares r made.  His life span?  Almost eternal.  Now, y is that?  ‘Cos dreaming is an on goiing thing.  No 1 can predict when it happens, or how, or even y.  It just happens.  So, d ‘almost eternal’ part is ‘cos everything ends sooner or later.  That is how things r perceived in d story.  It’s a work of fiction, & d imagination is so damn cool.  D story develops well, beginning wif a mystery, & slowly tying things towards d end after a long series. 

1 thing I hate about dreams.  We r not aware of all d unreal things until we wake up.  Notice how it usually happens when things get interesting or intense?  Then, when it is all over, we r left wondering how things may hav been, b it 4 d better or worse.  We’ll smile or even laugh @ all d impossible things that went on in our heads when we sleep, knowing that we just had a restless night.  Hm… it is actually a bad thing 2 remember dreams, ‘cos it shows that d mind is still @ work.

2 me, nightmares hav a dif definition.  It’s not d scary 1’s wif ghosts or monsters involved.  These, I wake up frightened, then smiled @ d foolishness.  Oh, in such ‘nightmares’, it was only in 1 occasion that I was d hero, which I remember vividly.  Funny 2, s I was scared 2 hell, & also ‘cos I barely know d damsel in distress.  LOL. 

Anyway, I’m more concerned abt d 1’s I wake up feeling disturbed spiritually & emotionally.  These r more down-2-earth, things that could happen in reality.  Needless 2 say, they r d things which I hope will not come 2 b.  2 dream of them, it’s s if those things hav happened, but r not conveyed 2 me.  There4, it is thru dreams that I receive such tidings.  Based on ‘The Sandman’, such things r possible.  I honestly hope not, but if it’s true… it’s not s if things will work out d way I want them 2.  Still, whatever d turmoil within… I hav a life 2 live…

Used 2 look 4ward 2 school holidays.  How were things back then?  1 week, sometimes 2-3, & also over a month.  Days spent on either travelling, or just being @ home, watching TV all day long.  Will still hav d chance 2 do so while in uni & college.  Then?  A stretch of yrs where these long holidays will b denied us, unless we decide otherwise. 

Not so keen on d holiday seasons now though…  In my line of work, that’s d bz-est of times.  Don’t really understand y ppl would like 2 go 2 that 1 particular place 4 holiday s well.  Still, part of d job. 

Will hav 2 plan 4 holidays now.  Never like planning on these things in d 1st place.  It’s how things r wif me.  If I prepare 4 them, either they won’t work out, or they turn out badly.  D future is fluid, after all.  On such things, I tend 2 go wif d flow.  It was like that 4 a while.  I felt like going some place, & I really did. 

It was quite some time ago.  I went thru sth, & thought I needed a vacation of some sorts.  So, remembering an offer from b4, I called a fwen, & asked if I could take up on d offer.  Sudden, but luckily, accepted.  From that place, I called another fwen @ another place.  Later, a 3rd fwen 2 a 3rd place.  I didn’t spend much then, s I travelled alone, stayed @ my fwens’ place, & most of d time, it was their treat.  Hey, how much can 1 eat? 

Now, wif work on most days, such sudden actions & decisions r harder 2 come by.  They do cross my mind, but harder 2 carry out.  2 much 2 consider, financial situation 2 essential.  Hav a particular place I wan 2 visit since long ago.  Somehow, it’s not impossible, but highly unlikely.  Don’t ask me y.  I just feel that way.  Still, do wonder when my next holiday will b…