Under a Little Umbrella

When ppl do things they don’t normally do, it scares d hell out of others.  What’s not 2 b scared abt?  Still, such drastic actions or sudden changes r usually motivated by certain unknown reasons.  D most common scenario would b receiving a phone call from a fwen whom u’ve lost contact 4 a vewy, vewy long time. 

So, how do things normally go?  "Hey, long time no c.  How r u?  Wanna come out 4 a drink some time?"  Nth unusual in particular, right?  No…  When such calls are received, among d 1st few things that come 2 mind will b MLM & insurance.  Well aware that this doesn’t apply 2 all, but it’s a fact that such thoughts do surface.  It just spoils d good old days where such calls 4 a drink r really just that, 4 a simple drink & some updating on 1 another’s lives. 

Despite all this, it is also sth I tend 2 do.  Not every1 receives this treatment, but I do call certain ppl after a long time almost 4 no particular reasons.  Mostly r ‘cos of b’days.  Others just a simple chat.  Talking can cover lots of things, while it’s also nice 2 hear their voices again.  Also, feelings & emotions r more easily conveyed, which by d way, could b faked, but it doesn’t bother me that much.  I do what I want, & that’s really all there is 2 it.  Surprising & unwelcome it may b 2 some, but I hope there r those who r used 2 this. 

D 1 thing I remember telling a lot of ppl is, b urself.  I know that everything changes, & that everything starts from 0, but after all those yrs, sth from d beginning will always b wif u til d end of days.  4 me, this is 1 of them.  No promises that I’ll call every1 of my fwens, but if I do, know that it is just what I tend 2 do.  My way of saying it, "Don’t stay out of character". 

Perhaps d largest thing that I found so nice & comforting back here, is a sense of belonging.  No, not that I truly belong some place, which I don’t think so @ d moment.  It’s d feeling of being @ home, & reliving things d way they used 2 b.  Nth stays d same, that’s 4 certain, but d nostalgia is there.  In a way, it can b considered a bad thing, 4 we can’t always hang on 2 our past.  2 some, it’s what keeps them from moving 4ward.  2 me, these r things I used 2 do, things I normally do. 

A simple thing.  It feels nice 2 speak hokkien again, @ home & work.  Honestly, it was awkward @ 1st.  I only speak so 2 my family & fwens.  Colleagues become fwens, & slowly, d clients s well.  D cantonese that I picked up remains helpful, 4 I sometimes contact my ex-colleagues.  It’s also nice 2 know those who r still there, & those who’ve moved on. 

I don’t think it’s nice 2 let go of memories.  It’s what made us who we r.  Good or bad, all d things that each ppl go thru is unique 2 each individual.  D results of that always remains 2 b seen.  Isn’t that what’s interesting?  1 way or another, we r all just going thru d motions of living.  Looking @ d big picture, all r similar in that way, no?  Specifically though, each & every single 1 hav their own sense of identity. 

How often do we dream of having a fairy-tale ending of our own?  Almost all movies end that way 2.  However, we do know that such things r just… tales.  No harm in dreaming, right?

How did this term come 2 b in d 1st place?  ‘Cos of ‘faeries’, I presume.  Magical beings carrying bags of magical sand, or a magic wand, working a little magic on ppl 4 dif effects.  Of course, it’s 4 d happiness of others.  A nice, cheerful & happy life, 4 those who hav these beings watching over their back. 

Still, what of d ‘faeries’ themselves?  Who looks after them when they r sick?  Who shares their pain in times of sorrow?  Who lift their spirits when they r down?  Their purpose may b 2 bring joy 2 others.  Then, what of their own joy?  Shrugging off such problems & feelings r d normal solutions, but every1 knows that there r things that can’t b put off 4 2 long. Even trivial 1s may add up. 

So, dif priorities r understandable.  Sometimes, it’s just necessary 2 think a lil further ahead… or sideways.  :p  ‘Ppl’ shd take more notice of those around them.  ‘Faeries’ shd take more notice of their own well beings.  After all, every1 wants a fairy-tale ending, right?  ^_^